Confession (Go Back)

I turned around all of a sudden
and it feels like nothing is left behind.
What have I even been doing with my life?
The years that have passed surely weren't short,
yet I've let so much slip by.

I'm ashamed before tomorrow's me.
I'm sorry to the me ten years from now.
But should I just stay discouraged like this?
No.
How I've lived until now matters,
but how I live from here on matters more.

Just like when you're walking along and suddenly
your stomach hurts and you rush for the bathroom,
holding it in halfway there matters less
than pushing forward, doing your best to hold on
all the way until you arrive.